20050130
hmmm I have finally arrived upon a decision, and bought the normal 20GB IPOD after contemplating for a bloodi long time.
At least I had no regrets after purchasing it, and was convinced that I have made the appropriate choice. It has a really stylish design and an excellent interface, man the wheel, once you get your hands on it, you wouldn't wanna let go haha... Save up and purchase it, I strongly URGE you to get one, especially if you are one who enjoys listening to music a lot.
Life has been pretty stagnent and empty for the past weeks... Perhaps its because I have made up my mind, and decided to adopt a new approach towards life..the proactive approach. I would be in more control of how I feel, which means a reduction of both depressing and exuberant days. I guess I have been rather successful in it. Although it prevents depression, at the same time, this would cause me to drift away from my friends too, which means that I have to make a sacrifice which I am totally reluctant to do so.
Previously, I have always been a very reactive person. What do i mean by reactive? Basically they are people whose mood and general state of mind are easily affected by the actions and words of their friends and people around them. Such people tend to treasure friendships more, spend more time with their friends, and they completely enjoy the company of their good friends. Their mood is always fluctuating between both sides of the extremes... they could be on cloud nine on one occasion, and utterly depressed on the other.
I am commenting on this based on my personal observation, correct me if i am wrong.
Man... I am stuck in a dilemma...Sigh..Perhaps I should just let nature take its course and stop over-reflecting, and complicate my own life yea?
Keep smiling keep shinning..
posted @ 1:10 AM
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20050116
Haha..yeah..finally 16, I have leaped over another major hurdle in life...
A couple of years back, I could still vividly remember the "mass-scale" birthday celebrations which was held year after year. Those were the primary school days.... If my memory served me right, it started off in Primary 2, yup. Even at the time when i was a naive numskull, I would make sure that everything is organized adequately, pen down a list of names of those who are invited to celebrate this annual event. And each year, at least 50 of my friends would come and transform my entire house into a living hell. I could still recall the joy I felt, when I unwrapped the presents... haha. Those were the simple pleasures I had when i was a kid. :)
For this year, I had the simplest birthday celebration in my life thus far, but it was a splendid celebration :) here are the pictures of my friends, who took time off and made this special occasion a memorable one (:
rascals!
these are my churchmates, yup these bunch of vivacious rascals, they never fail to brighten up my day (: Thanks for making my sundays exhilaratingly wild.
same birthdate!!
Another of my churchmate, and we both have the same birthdate :D but shes older than me by a year. haha.
my bestest bud!!
Last but not least, Mandy Chong!, thanks for da treat, really enjoyed your company! Dinner will be on me on the day you turn 16 (:
A fresh start, a fresh beginning
but its still the same old brand new me
posted @ 8:12 PM
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20050114
Its my second week as a sec 4 student and damn.., time realli flies yea? It feel as though yesterdae was monday, and in a split-second here comes friday, the day we all have been looking forward to all week long, its the day that we can finally dump our bloody bags aside, and look foward to 2 pathetic days of relaxation and entertainment. haha..
and damn...as a treasurer of my class, I was assigned to collect funds for class services at the end of this week. And guess what, I realised that the amount collected was $80 short of the actual amount. Well there is no escape to this situation and I had to pay up the $80. Thats the bloody shit problem of being a treasure, you would only lose money and never gain a single cent... haha..Sadly the bloody class has elected me to take the post of treasurer for 3 consecutive years. :\ sigh.. and i dun really like it
the week has been really really hectic, assignments after assignments, projects after projects, shit after shit, the pace of life is just horrendously fast. It seems like all of us have been transformed into cyborgs, and the only thing that is pushing us on is not our passion, but the fear of being removed from the Integrated Programme, and getting ostracized by the rest of the students in school :\ Living life without the choice to do what you want and what you like...its a bloody sad case isn't it.
My bdae will be on sunday, and yet the teachers have given me such fantastic birthday presents over the weekends, a stack of mind boggling assignments. I am attempting to finish it all by tonight, so that i can least have a peace of mind over the weekends, and to enjoy the special occasion (well at least for me) over t he weekends.
Turning 16 really soon...reality is indeed frightening. 16 years of my life have just passed in a flash. The moments that I once treasured as a kid will never reoccur again, and the only things that are left are only memories of the past. A feeling of nostalgia, but time can never be reversed, I guess we'll just have to live in the present, and stop worrying too much about the past or future. That is the way to live life to the fullest isn't it?
In life we gotta adapt to an everchanging road, holding on to never changing principles...
always bear that in mind.
posted @ 10:16 PM
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20050109
What are we living for?
Our goals, our dreams, our desires. In a selfish world that comprises of only us and no one else.
Change... We all change in a way or another at some point of time, in an attempt to shape our dreams, our life, our future. Some of us change for the better...some of us remain the same, while some of us have changed so much, that we tend to hurt our close friends without even knowing it. However, your friends being your friends, you being you. At the end of the day, do we fucking give a damn about what others feel?
DO WE?!
posted @ 1:07 AM
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20050105
Dun have much time today, so i would just write a short and crappy entry i suppose, haha.
I went to Mavis tuition centre at Kovan MRT for my A-maths tuition. It was my first time there, and I decided to give it a try cauz i received a couple of good feedbacks from the students there. Besides, the timing for the tuition is not fixed, so in the event any shit crops up I can still change to another date. After paying the tuition fees, i went straight into the classroom with EvA, as the rest of the class looked at me as if i was an alien that came from Mars...
I was wearing the HCJC Uniform and I heard them saying this " what is that J2 doing here" -_-'Argh..dun they know that the sec 4's in the new Hwa Chong Institution are supposed to wear that uniform now la...oh wells, cant blame them the rule was only implemented this year.
Not long after, the lecturer came in, wasted no time, and at once went to the whiteboard and scribbled a few equations. To my horror, the topic she was covering was Trigonometry. She wasn't teaching the basics at all, it was just purely revision as the teaching was done last year, and she expects every student to have a complete understanding of the topic. Many of the students were from express, as such they had learnt it in sec 3, but for me! under the bloody IP syllabus, I don't even freaking know what is cosecant, cotangent or secant, because we havent covered that particular topic! She teaches and writes so bloody fast that you can't even attempt to write and absorb what is taught at the same time.
However, I must say shes an excellent teacher. Very professional, and sharp. I think as time goes, I will slowly adapt to that bloody fast pace, and once I do that, I am invincible cause nothing else will be too fast for me.. Muahahaha..
The bloody thing was that she kept picking on me to answer her questions...when i dun even know the basics... so I was making a fool outta myself in front of the bloody class. Imagine, the class misunderstood and thought I am J2, IN HCJC, and I can't even answer a question that is in the sec 3 A-Maths syllabus.
Sometimes I ponder how the heck i gotten an A1 last year... when my maths sux and i have alreadi forgotten everything that I have learnt before :\ oh wells...
posted @ 8:51 PM
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